It was a friend request that brought back my childhood friend to my life again. This time I didn’t know if he would be my friend or something more , but it gave me a positive sign as soon as I saw his request. Accepting it , was the best decision I’ve ever made till date.
He gave me positive vibes when I was texting him, but i really didn’t know if he felt the same . I slowly started falling for the way he treated me. I couldn’t stop myself thinking about him. I couldn’t really call it love because I didn’t know what love was like. Without talking to him on phone , without hearing his voice and without knowing his intentions on me, I really didn’t wanna call it love. I just happen to ignore what feelings i had on him and continued to be his best friend.
They say having a guy as a best friend is amazing and less drama, and being his friend was heavenly . I never had any guy best friend before, who became this close to me. We did face many awkward situations discussing on some awkward topics , but this awkwardness is what made us get this unbreakable bond. Fights are also one of the major reason why our friendship remained that strong.
After one long year we took out the topic ‘love’ from nowhere. Believe me, everytime we spoke about it I was wishing that he should propose me. But when things like that didn’t happen I thought I was seeing him in a wrong way. After a long chat for days and days about it , I did confess about my love towards him and the best part was HE LOVED ME TOO. I was on cloud nine !
Without meeting each other , we confessed our love to each other. Maybe you really don’t have to meet that person whom you love , it can happen over a virtual world too ! Now the big confusion was RELATIONSHIP .We had to get into a relationship or no , was the question here. Somehow we did get into a relationship. But things really didn’t go well between us. Not that he had changed or i had changed, it’s just that we started expecting more from each other. Six months of relationship was really strange between us. So we had to break up and we did break up.
He stayed with me even after i thought he was not mine anymore. He never left me alone . He shared all my happiness , all my sadness just the way he use to before we got into a relationship. He was the same guy I knew a year ago. Maybe relationship was just not our type. After few months we both did accept each other as friends again, though it took us quite a long time to get out of the relationship province.
It was very hard to not love him so I tried to get away from him by trying to get into another relationship. To forget that I loved him , to stop myself from loving him, to help myself to get over it , I tried to get into another relationship. Only worst things happen to me after i took this decision. I forgot that I was doing wrong to both myself and him. Though he asked me to live a life I want to , be the way I love , get into relationship with any other guy, deep down inside I knew he still loved me and he was just helpless. New guys into my life was really not an option for me to stop loving him. So I never tried to stop loving him hereafter.
He accepted me , even after all the drama I did. He accepted me as a person, he accepted me as his friend , he accepted me as his love. No relationship, but immense love happened to grow then. And now I’m his , and he is mine . We really don’t know for how long this will last. But if there is something called forever, I want it to be us.